Why?...why?
Piece of good news here, the 3 month old black mongrel puppy that I put in a foster’s home was adopted out : ) I’m gonna miss that cute innocent face …: ( Thanks to those who help out : )
Now, today…late AGAIN! I’ve been late so frequently this year. Anyway, some friends and I myself too, notice a change in my behaviour and me somehow… I’ve not been paying much attention to lessons in school these days, find those lessons boring, uninteresting, aimless etc…why? I even feel that going to school is damn boring, stupid! I thought of many things and there are so many Qs with no answers in me…why? why?
Other than that, I feel like slacking all the way and even started talking back to elders with no respect for them at all. Now the teachers, I’m starting to despise some of them with reasons that I don’t know myself! Simply dislike them. Yes, I’m that unreasonable…And in class, feel that it sucks badly…Then classmate…almost all are fake ass…all so fake! I feel that they’re sort of ‘actors’…acting to be ‘guai kiangs’ in school and sitting up damn straight and act as if they’re so awake… when lessons seems so sucky to me…
I hate those fake asses…at one point telling me how boring or how much they hate lessons…then at the other end, keep on looking at teachers and pretending that everything is explained so clearly when the fact is…NOTHING is learnt, they DON’T understand anything! So don’t act! What the F is that for acting for the sake of pleasing teachers…if you don’t understand…either ask or don’t ask! Why act as if you understood everything, what’s the point? If respecting teachers is pleasing them for them to ‘like’ you more or to become a ‘teacher’s pet’, then I’d rather have no respect for some of them.
Lastly, skipping lessons. I don’t skipped lessons in the past. But recently I started to do it…not seldom but quite frequently. I used to think that no matter how boring lessons are, they’ll be helpful in a way or another but now, when I skipped lessons which is definitely and obviously a WRONG act, I don’t think I’m at fault. Why again? Am I shirking off responsibilities or what?
I do wonder what’s the reason behind this tremendous change. I’m not like this a year before or years ago. I once felt that school is a interesting, learning place, but now…not anymore, I’m starting to hate it somehow. I’m not sure whether I can be back to my usual self, I’ll try but with no guarantee, it’ll be a successful change…
Now, today…late AGAIN! I’ve been late so frequently this year. Anyway, some friends and I myself too, notice a change in my behaviour and me somehow… I’ve not been paying much attention to lessons in school these days, find those lessons boring, uninteresting, aimless etc…why? I even feel that going to school is damn boring, stupid! I thought of many things and there are so many Qs with no answers in me…why? why?
Other than that, I feel like slacking all the way and even started talking back to elders with no respect for them at all. Now the teachers, I’m starting to despise some of them with reasons that I don’t know myself! Simply dislike them. Yes, I’m that unreasonable…And in class, feel that it sucks badly…Then classmate…almost all are fake ass…all so fake! I feel that they’re sort of ‘actors’…acting to be ‘guai kiangs’ in school and sitting up damn straight and act as if they’re so awake… when lessons seems so sucky to me…
I hate those fake asses…at one point telling me how boring or how much they hate lessons…then at the other end, keep on looking at teachers and pretending that everything is explained so clearly when the fact is…NOTHING is learnt, they DON’T understand anything! So don’t act! What the F is that for acting for the sake of pleasing teachers…if you don’t understand…either ask or don’t ask! Why act as if you understood everything, what’s the point? If respecting teachers is pleasing them for them to ‘like’ you more or to become a ‘teacher’s pet’, then I’d rather have no respect for some of them.
Lastly, skipping lessons. I don’t skipped lessons in the past. But recently I started to do it…not seldom but quite frequently. I used to think that no matter how boring lessons are, they’ll be helpful in a way or another but now, when I skipped lessons which is definitely and obviously a WRONG act, I don’t think I’m at fault. Why again? Am I shirking off responsibilities or what?
I do wonder what’s the reason behind this tremendous change. I’m not like this a year before or years ago. I once felt that school is a interesting, learning place, but now…not anymore, I’m starting to hate it somehow. I’m not sure whether I can be back to my usual self, I’ll try but with no guarantee, it’ll be a successful change…
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1:38 AM
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