When will I meet my cousin?

Going M'sia again : )

k... I just took off from Siaping from 12th to 17th March to M'sia to visit my grandma : ) I've not visited her since she had her operation, hope she's doing well. Aiya...that's after new year, cannot take angpao : P

Now about my cousin, he's a year older than me so that makes him 18. I remembered clearly that we were very close even when we were on different land since we were young, so we only get to meet up once or twice in a year when they visits S'pore or when I visits M'sia. My cousins and I had very close relationship since young, sort of cannot be seperated. When I was young, I always cried when their holidays were over and had to return : ( It's a very close bond anyway...

Then from 2 to 3 years ago, we grew up, had different lives, different interest, wanted different things and most importantly, we had different lives. He went through a lot that we've never went through before. To me, he's very brave one, a guy who's loyal to his buddies and a protective counsin of me since I was young haiz...

Now years passed, he change a lot. From a 'brother' of mine, he became a loanshark, ah beng, big gangster in his land. He did a lot of things that shocked me, I didn't know what cause the change in him, I really don't know.

I just got the news that his family now wants to disown him. I don't think he care anyway... From what my aunt heard, he went to beat up someone so badly that the person is now suffering from fatal injuries and he actually beat up the WRONG person -_-'' and the brother of this person who was beaten up is after my cousin, meaning a lot of other people out there are after him : (

I dunno where he is now and neither do I know how to help him haix...My cousin's family went to speak with this person and hope to resolve everything peacefully, obviously no use...Now he only appear in his home's vicinity once or twice a year, no one know where he is, what is he doing etc...Worse, his family refuse to let anyone know much about my cousin or what took place : (


I recalled the times we had when we were young, simply fun, memorable, nothing else. Those fucking people, like my mum out there always say that my cousin himself don't know how to think etc...I know him very well, he's not those that don't know how to think. From years ago, we did notice the change very slowly, get into fights, quarrels, thrashing up people's stall and whatever you can think of...

My mind is in a mess now! I'm just very sad.